All of this made me think about how I've been fighting this injury thing. I haven't really even accepted that I'm actually injured--there was no hard evidence, afterall. Every day I wake up and wish I was going for a run. Most days I even consider actually going for a run. Just a quick one. Could it really be that bad for me? Then I step down with too much force coming down the stairs or quicken my step to cross the street to go to the mailbox and the same pain is there. Again, I'm reminded that something still isn't quite right in that left leg of mine. Fine, I surrender. And that's really it:
I need to just surrender.
Because, you know what?
There's not a darn thing I can do about it.
It is what it is, and the more I try to fight it, the harder it becomes. I do believe that the universe sends things your way for a reason, and the more you try to fight against them the more the universe pushes them back at you until you finally learn your lesson. It's time to get zen about this injury and stop trying to fight against the flow of things. I think if I can find a way to stop trying to take a shot at the universe, I could actually come out of this with grace and new found strength. So, that's what I'm going to work on.
Here I am with my Zen face on. Don't I look serene? (I also look like I just came home from a run which, sadly, is not true. Geez, I suppose I could put on something other than a sports bra and a ratty tank top.)
There's my Zen legs. That left one sure doesn't look stress fractured!
Things I have been doing, instead of running:
1. Yoga - as many consecutive Sun Salutations (Ashtange style, baby!) as I can handle when I get up in the morning. This has been a huge positive in what seems like a huge negative. Man, was I totally inflexible! I should've been doing this all along. Who knows, maybe that was part of the problem. Plus, I'm going to start teaching yoga to preschooler's this fall, so it would probably be good to be able to say that I actual do yoga.
2. Free weights - just some basic upper body moves with some old school metal dumbells we've got in our closet. I think my husband worries that I might start to look too "beefy". I don't think this will be an issue...But, I am enjoying focusing on my arms. They're not lookin' too bad, if I do say so myself.
3. Eating a crap-TON of fruit - seriously, today I ate: a few handfulls of blueberries, a plum, half a banana, a quarter of a canteloupe and a whole mango. Tomorrow ought to be interesting, don't you think? But, seriously, I am aware that I'm burning a lot less calories these days, so I'm trying not to let that creep up on me.
Get in my belly!!
Things I haven't been doing, instead of running:
1. Swimming - I've said this before, I am a horrible swimmer. Plus, my darn gym is approximately 19 minutes away. Not terribly convenient.
2. Cycling - Again, my gym is (refer to the above statement). I actually called my gym last night to put my name on the list for this morning's 5:30 spin class. Um, yeah...I didn't make that. I think that kind of dedication is up on another level. A level that I, apparently, do not aspire to reach.
So, I'm not expecting my cardio to stay where it was. This might just be something I'll have to deal with building back up. (Ommmmmm.)
Funny how running can be such a mental sport, because it seems that not running requires just as much mental stamina...